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So get this, Ryan and I have been texting because he begged me to stay friends with him. And I hated to say I no. I didn’t want to give him up completely. Well, he’s been telling me that he’s waiting for me and that he loves me and misses me and all this other bullshit. Well today, I called him to make sure he was ok, and his new girlfriend called me back. Funny how he never mentioned that and isn’t man enough to tell me himself. He had her text and call me. Isn’t that a true Christian man right there?

Anonymous asked: are you gonna get a divorce now? did you tell your parents you were married?

Yes and yes. My mom is pretty supportive. And my dad doesn’t really know anything. :/

Anonymous asked: Thats ridiculous!! Dont have another night with him! Its just what he wants!!

To late. :/ I caved in. He came over last night. It was good closure though. I made him feel like crap and we had a really good long talk. I just wanted to see him again. And I know it was stupid. But I had to get some questions answered. And to have one last night to pretend everything was ok again. :/

Ryan

So, Ryan messaged me on Facebook yesterday to let me know that he met some ‘awesome’ people and girls were hitting on him, and he wanted to flirt back. And realized, he missed being single. And didn’t wanna be tied down. So, he left me. But ‘we can still be friends’ and he doesn’t ‘want to say goodbye forever.’ And ‘still wants to be a major part of mine and Stormie’s lives.’ Basically saying, I want to have you when I want you, but I also want to fuck everyone else that comes around. We were married for 3 weeks. THREE WEEKS. I seriously cannot wrap my mind around what he has done. He did let me know that he loves me ‘oh so god much.’ And that I’m the love of this life. But if I am….why the hell did he do this?! Oh that’s right, he didn’t want to be tied down! And he wants to party and doesn’t want to be stuck at home with a baby…..fuck you, you immature piece of shit. But the sad thing is, I’m seeing him Tuesday so we can talk and have one last night together….what is wrong with me??

redwaves asked: (2/2) accepting was your family when you found out you were pregnant? do you breast feed? sorry, i know a lot of these questions are very personal. you may respond privately if you are more comfortable doing so.

Well, I am a single mother. So my challenges are different, because I do everything on my own. But! One of the biggest things is patients. You have to have a lot of it when you have a child. They need all your attention, and more. I spend my money on clothes and diaper. But if you stock up in the beginning of pregnancy, you won’t have that issue. Like buy a pack or 2 of diapers a week. And switch with wipes. And do the same with the little everyday things. Everything adds up. And what you thought was a little bit of baby stuff can be 100$ or more. My family took it pretty well. They were very supportive. And I tried to breast feed. But my grandmother told me I wasn’t making enough milk and was feeding her bottles and she stopped latching to me. So she ruined it. But I loved breast feeding. That was our bonding time. No one was able to come between us at those moments. It’s hard, but once you get the hang of everything and set a good budget, it’s all easier. And it’s a day by day thing. But they will be the most amazing and beautiful days of your life.